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The beginning to this day as of the earth calendar 13/4/2000

Heaven, it's existence goes further back than the oldest minds of this universe can recall. The Creator, The beginning and The end. King of Kings, Lord of Lords.

You may ask, where does this lead, Well, you see, I'm an Angel, or at least this is where my journey started, and this is where I stand at this moment, Although many things have happened and my face has changed, this is my story.

Firstly you must know my beginning, birthed into an existence of total servitude, my only thought, "To serve God. Ruler of heaven." To glorify His name.

There was no problem with this, you see this is all the angels did, it was at that time, the only reason we were birthed into His presence. Then things changed Lucifer, Son of the morning rebelled against God, he wanted to claim God's power for his own, God chose not to destroy this angel, instead gave him and those angels following him an option, repent and return to the fold, or fall from grace. Lucifer refused to give in, sealing his banishment, he and those who followed him fell from heaven, forever to be cast against those who stood for light and purity.

This is where my story begins, you see, although I was not one of those in the uprising God still had His hand on me, Given the power to lead His mighty army, to train them, and raise them into a force that would one day destroy those that stood against the one true God's rule.

For centuries, this is what I did, watching the mortals on earth, watching them destroy themselves as they listened to the words of my fallen brethren. Then Gods Son came, a final plan for Salvation to those that would accept Him. I stood by silently, waiting for His call as He was hung on a cross to die. You see I did not know how that was to play out, and in my foolishness I approached God, asked Him how He could allow them to do this to His Son. I was told to be patient. But I failed, I called forth my best warriors, we would save our Lords Son. But as we approached earth to save Him, dark clouds formed above blocking our path, and as our Lords Son died, Myself and those I commanded waited behind a dark curtain, unable to seek revenge on those who should suffer.

For my sin against my God I was banished, told to live a mortal's life, so that I may understand the error of my judgement. I was told that when I died I would remember who I once was and return to the fold, but this story would not be worth telling if this was all that would happen.

Ironically I was born as a fisherman's son. However I was raised as a warrior, on my 2 moons after my 17th birthday I was sent to war, during this time I slayed many in the name of Religion. However, this was not the truth of this war and these deaths weighed heavily against my soul. This gave Lucifer, now known to the world as Satan, though still on some level my brother the chance he needed to gain my service. So it was one night after too much drink that a stranger approached me with a bargain, I couldn't refuse. Put my signature on this piece of paper and let my name be always remembered as a hero of a war against evil, this of course never came to pass, rather I was executed as a traitor to my country on return from the war.

Thus my soul was sent, to lead my disorganized brethren, to command and train them as I had when I was in Heaven, true my memories were still the same as when I was mortal, and I still had no recollection of my shall we say birth right. It was during this time that I found my way to a little tavern known as the Red Dragon inn, Drawn there by a dark power, I met a man dedicated to my new master, he told me of a lady with great power, and that I would find her at this inn, so I went, though I met this woman, she shortly disappeared, the man who brought me here the first time, also never seen again.

During one of my visits to this inn, a sorcerer attacked me with some sort of weapon, it tore my flesh, destroying both the human form I held, and mutilating my demon form, the demon within waited for an opportunity a stray mortal to pass close enough that he may devour it, gain enough energy to regain some sort of form. But as we waited in this abyss for some "help" my soul had time to recover and realize that I finally had a chance to free myself from this dark lord. So I wrestled my demon, fighting for dominant control, eventually God deemed that my suffering had reached an end, an angel was sent to free me, pulling me from the demon, with no soul attached to it, it returned to hell, while I rose to heaven, my past restored to me, a new understanding of the God's will in my heart.

It was here that I joined a secret group of angels in heaven, sworn to protect 7 sacred seals that when opened will start Armageddon, and bring an end to the universe as it is known. Here I relearned the skills of my angelic form.

But the demon I was once joined to still managed to gain parts of my thoughts, though not much at a time, there was enough for him to learn my skills, and learn the location of the temple I lived in. So on one fateful night he and those demons under his command attacked, determined to start Armageddon early, hoping this would give hell the advantage they needed.

But I'm getting ahead of myself, you see there is a very important part of this story I have not told yet. Before my redemption the most beautiful Angel I have ever met found pity for the twisted soul I once was, slowly we became friends, though this in itself had problems, you see we had feelings for the other but due to our alignment we could not express this and often parted company with unfinished conversation and hurt feelings. This is why I fought the demon within for freedom, believing things would be different if I was free.

Well it worked, our friendship grew after I became an angel, though she still kept her distance, you see there were a few problems she still had to face before she believed she could be really close to me, but these are stories best left for her to tell.

You see while she was caught in one of the biggest battles she ever fought I too was caught in war. Demons invaded the temple, not expecting war only 20 angels were present that night, myself, the six other guardians of the scrolls and 13 others who served either as custodians of the temple or lower guards. They all died that night as demons swarmed through the temple. Awakening to screams late in the night I ran from my room sword in hand, as my door opened an all to familiar voice filled my head. "Come Strosek, return to me so that we may win this battle together." At first I was confused at how my inner demon found this place, than enraged as I saw a close friend, and the same angel that pulled me from my inner demon, laying on the floor, a dagger stuck into the side of her head. Filled with rage I began to search the temple for him, many demons died that night as I searched for him, becoming more enraged with each dead angel I saw, the Last was my commander, his eyes plucked from his head, as he hung from the ceiling by his own gut. As the rage in me grew the sword I held became tainted. When I found the demon who controlled this hoard, the one who was once a part of me the anger grew so much that the sword became black, it's touch icy cold, though this did not bother me, and so we fought hours seemed to pass as our blades met, and blows were past, then experience paid off, my blade struck true, passing into his cold black heart, I do not know what caused the following event, but I know there is a purpose to it. As his final scream passed my ears the sword seemed to shake becoming hot and cold all at once, my rage and anger filling the sword, the demons soul being pulled into it.

I took the sword hiding it from all except myself, then approached the council of heaven, how strange it seemed to stand as a pear to those I once instructed. I told of the events of that night, leaving out what happened to the sword, just saying that my inner demon was destroyed.

After a time I returned to the inn, fearing the worst I was grateful to find that the one I loved was still alive and that she too had won her battle. It was not long now soon, we would be wed, and I would have found eternal happiness, at least this is what I longed for. Before our marriage my love for her and her love and trust in me was so strong that her wings were healed, I knew that this wedding would be perfect.

So our fateful day arrives and we were wed, as we left the chapel a strange man approached offering a gift to my love, nothing was noted about his behaviour, after all do you not give the bride gifts on the day she weds. Needless to say some dark magic was threaded into this necklace, doubt filled her mind, her wings once again destroyed. It was many days later when I managed to get her to remove the necklace from around her neck, but uncertainty still flowed on how much she still trusted me.

I believe now that she still does trust me, and though we are forced apart at this moment, some great event looming on the horizon, I know that she loves me, as I love her, and because of this we there is no obstacle we cannot over come.

I know command the temple containing the 7 seals, finding 6 new angels to guard the seals along my side, a female has joined my ranks her name is Starian, my heart reached out to her, for her path has not been that far and separated from my own, now she hides and guards over my darkness as I do hers, in time the other 5 destined to stand with me will be found, and we will once again stand and protect the temple.

My last point to add to this story for now. Hell has found a new commander for it's army, his name is emnilivE, I do not know much on this demon, except that he seems to feed of his power, this will make him very formidable if his human and demon sides are working together. So I stand and wait, seeing what hand Fate will deal for me tomorrow as I work my way through today.

I thank you for reading my journal, this being kept as an account of events that people may wish to know of my life, however certain events will be kept from this journal as they are either too close to my heart or kept in secret as not to break my trust with those that have given me their trust. As time passes I will add to this journal. Feel free to check back any time to see if this journal has been continued.

My journal continues this earth day 12/5/2000

Life again takes another few turns, twists and bends. Recentaly my wife dissapeared, although I still heard from her, I was instructed not to follow or try find her, MY faith in her made me wait to see what was going on, this was no easy time for me, I wish to protect her more than any other desire in my heart, but I was made to wait, not knowing fully if she was alright or not, then I thought my doubts were over, she had returned, or so I thought, you see it was not her, a clone of sorts designed to pull me out the way, perhaps add some distraction to whatever journey my wife was on, So again I was left in doubt with fear for her safety sitting very heavily on my heart.

But this is not the only twists that my life has taken, I sit writing this, my eyes and mind tired from days of research. I approached a Demon in the inn, the other day, his name is Bloodwing. My original purpose was to stop him from harasing a woman in the inn, but it seemed to move further than this. First generation Angels, we were the first created by God, His General's, his Personal Guards and his personal entertainment. Lucifer's role was at this time to sing for God, blessed with power of song and voice, now the power of voice is used in his lies, His power of song to corrupt the youth. but I'm moveing off topic, it seems Bloodwing himeself was a general along side me, one of 13 first generations to leave hell in the original betrayel. In my research I have come accross an interesting point, told to me by God himself, although all first born consider ourselves brother and sister in the highest regard, there is another point to discuss, two of the angels are indeed true brothers, God wanted his army to be strong and thus Two generals were born together, They would lead Gods private army, the best of the best, I was one of thhese brothers, the other I thought lost as he was one of the 13, Bloodwing said he was the brother I lost, I choose to ignore his comment, but I had to find more, I have entered the private tomb, the books held within, most written by Gods hand himself, the fate of his own angels transcribed within, it's strange to think he wrote these, He knew of Lucifers betrayel, yet he still created him, is there something here that we are not being told, some game being played, with us as pawns. It seems Bloodwing's words are true, he is who he says he is, and I now know, a war between us will start armagedon, I must seek him out, is it possible to bend fates hand, what happens if we refuse to play, will armagedon ever come? Is it possible that brothers united can find common ground between our choosen path of light and darkness, and force fate to redeal his hand. I must know.

I saw My wife again at the inn, though something seemed different, I stared into her eyes, I know it is her, but she seemed more concerened with those in the inn, then greeting her own husband who she has not seen in far too long, is it possible I have lost her, or does she avoid me in her own misdirected approach to protect me. How do I teach her that, I am stronger than I let on, without showing her the full glory God has bestowed on my true form.

I grow tired, I will write again another day, for now I go to sit and think, so much to do, to learn, and my time to do it in, is not certain. Can one Angel make the difference I wish to make, Force the stand I wish to play, will a third party be born between the battle of good and evil, and where will it's direction lie?

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